Breaking Down The Walls Of Sabotage

I often catch myself saying, “One day I will stop creating barriers from what I know to be true.” The day has come for me to create new boundaries and new ideas, eliminating thoughts of self-sabotage.

The Pilgrim declares, “If it could only be so easy, to dance like the Birds and Flowers?!”

The Warrior Declares, “It can!!! We need only stop dwelling on the lack of possibilities!!!

In a world of negativity, it is only natural to create a protective barrier towards experienced negative emotions. When we were children experiencing name calling or physical abuse, we immediately create a defensive behavior protecting us from future encounters. Growing up we create protective barriers, keeping us from being who we were truly meant to be.  Our defense mechanisms actually block us from reaching our inner most feelings…that of pure Love.

Have you ever had an experience make you so mad you felt helpless? Where do you suppose that conditioned response came from? It is often said we are conditioned through our personal direct and indirect experiences, leaving us no choice but react in fear. The following story is about a man who finds a treasure map. The only thing he needed, was to dig it up…for the treasure was guaranteed…

A man comes home to his beautiful bride uncontrollably excited he tells her he found a treasure map guaranteeing riches beyond comprehension. The exciting part was he deduced that the treasure was buried right in their very back yard! Already getting the shovels ready out back, he invited his wife to join him in the dig. They begin digging and imagining what the riches might be.  The wife imagines paying off their house, getting new cars, sending their kids to the finest colleges and taking 3-4 exotic trips per year.
The husbands ideas were a bit different, as he expressed the need for a boat, new cars, motorcycles, 4-wheelers, snowmobiles, cabin on thousands of acres, new house, and quitting his job. After about 4 hours, they both are experiencing fatigue while second-guessing there is even a treasure at all. Losing hope fast, they continue the dig. The wife quits from exhaustion but the husband keeps digging.

After 8 hours in total, the husband is angry and wonders why he is even digging in the first place. His wife, handing him a refreshing glass of lemonade, offers him some encouragement, ”Dear. How will we ever know if there is a treasure, if we give up digging?”

The husband replies, ”But dear. We have dug for over 8 hours and we haven’t found anything yet and the ground is getting more difficult to penetrate. It would be easy if it were topsoil, but the clay and rocks makes it nearly impossible to cut through.”

The wife reminds her husband that ”if it were all topsoil the treasure would have been found by now. Being clay many people are certain to have given up, just as you want to. Now is the time to press on and go for the treasure that you were so sure of in the first place.”

”Yes, I can do this.”

He looks to his wife, ”I need your help dear. I cannot do this alone. Together we can cut through the toughest of earth thrown at us.”

After digging for another 45 minutes they come to stop…they found something. It was a treasure alright, filled with everything imaginable.  Gems, gold, bonds, deeds to land, and a mirror that read…”while these treasures are here for your taking, the true gift lay within. You persevered where others gave up, you came together when others split up, you sacrificed much time to obtain your goals. You are the gift beyond all measures…the rest is just details.”

Just as in life, there are promises of a treasure beyond measure but when we discover it may require a bit of digging up past negative experiences we forget about the promised treasure. Truth is, only 1-5 % of all people are willing to cut through the dirty part…leading to true healing. Our true healing can come from undeniable faith of being saved, but more often than not our human flesh gets in the way of our beliefs. Because of our stubbornness, we often have to learn things the hard way. In the case of the husband and wife team, their faith and actions led them to paradise. It took faith of the husband and wife, but it also took the support of the wife for this dream to come true. In going beyond the dirty past, we find a beautiful paradise.

There was a clay Buddha statue owned by a battered monastery. One day a monk noticed something shiny coming through the dirty clay statue of the Buddha. When he began chiseling away he discovered a golden Buddha thought to have been lost for thousands of years. The monks of the old days covered the golden Buddha in clay so that the armies, that destroyed their village years ago, would never find the Buddha. The treasure would not have been found without persistence of this monk.

”David was already in there. I just chipped away the excess.” ~Michelangelo

As in life we are to chip away the excess. If all we know is what we know on the surface, how would we ever know what lay underneath?

While the Pilgrim would have given up digging in the dirt, with no promise of ever finding a treasure and leaving him unknowing to what lay underneath. The Warrior continues digging, giving thanks for each new layer unearthed. With every layer, She knows that her treasure lay beneath the next layer…going yet another layer.

Stepping into the Canvas with shovel in hand. Daring to dig up the past, only to heal once more. Those willing to chip away the excess will surely find their David laying underneath. In unearthing the past we instinctively lay a new canvas to be shared by all.

Becoming A Master Painter


Stepping into the Canvas as Master Painter. As children we painted without hesitation, only to be corrected in how we should paint. As we grew from adolescence, to young adult and finally adulthood…we lost our ability to paint the Canvas as we saw fit. Painting in the lines, as to be corrected by another, losing our ability to create on our own. Small percentage will hold their creativity,  while the others continue searching for what they lost as a child…innocence. We begin as master painters only to be told another way, shut down, never painting again. Those retaining their creative innocence…hallelujah. Only one percent will find what they have lost, having to relearn skills once lost. From master painter to logical, logical to student, from student to master painter once again…finally, master painter becoming the canvas itself. From master painter to the painted, student to  master painter…only to become the canvas itself. We can be the painter, the painted or the painting itself…

From Nowhere To Now Here

Not sure if this happens to you, but as I cycle through life there are feelings of “what am I doing?” Does this happen to you? Do you ever feel that you’re lost with lack of purpose? Guaranteed…we all have purpose.

Even though I write about this daily…I too…fall victim to this poverty-mentality. Is it because I’m weak? Because I’m vulnerable? Or simply because I’m human? What ever the case, I observe these feelings, allowing them to be present and learn how to or how not to be.
It is like a self transformation: we feel we are going nowhere until we realized we are now here… Ultimately coming to a place of self-realization or now self.  These aha moments or not so aha moments can be very enlightening to us. When things don’t go our way, simply let them pass. As they pass we regroup, changing our daily events…our daily thoughts.

As the cycles continue our thoughts change, paralleled to our reality. Again, I reflect on my personal life…not sure if this happens to you, but being married with two children it is often difficult picking yourself up and getting back on track. With the many factors around you, affecting your choices and your thoughts, we must once again reevaluate our time management, changing our daily events. Restructuring time spent in our days. Allowing 20 to 30 minutes per day, we maintain true to ourselves and continue the journey inward from nowhere to now here… To now self.

If a loved one is struggling with their own dilemmas, offer them an ear, not suggestions. The greatest gift we can give to another is a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen or a hand to hold. We cannot solve everyone’s problems, but merely our own.

Stepping into the canvas of yet another painting. As we clear the canvas of another, we arrive at a more beautiful day. The sunshine lighting the way to a happy and joyous day. We can hold onto old paintings, or we can paint a new reality of our dreams. From Nowhere…to now here…finally to now self. You are so worth it…why not take the trip inward now?!

My Favorite Time Of Year

As fall approaches, it reminds me of my favorite time of year. Rustling of leaves, turning of colors, cooler days, and pumpkin-apple cheesecake. I have also identified that fall is very powerful, for reasons I cannot understand…I just seem to be more in tune with the world around me. Some of my astrologer friends may have a better idea of why my energy peaks, feeling like I could tackle the world. This morning…an aha! moment… How do I take this special time of year and stretch it through the year? With a mere thought.

It is as simple as that. With my thoughts, my reality takes course. If I continue to say, “this is my special time of year”…then it will be reserved for only this time of year. If however, I wake up every morning, claiming this as my favorite day…with an echo of Winnie the Pooh…It takes Flight.

“What day is it?” asked Pooh.
“It’s today,” squeaked Piglet.
“My favorite day,” said Pooh.

~ A.A. Milne

As we wake up each morning, start with gratitude…gratitude for another day. Then may the next thoughts be that of our friend Pooh. A fresh start awaits us each morning…why not start it with a thought of “this is my favorite day.” Starting each day on this foot, sets into motion a re-wiring of our brain..leading us to a glorious day. With thoughts of gladness, we have actions of this.

As we continue through our day, we may get tripped by someone’s negativity. It is at this time we simply center ourselves in thoughts of having a good day. No matter what the world shall throw at us, by applying these simple actions…we can set the stage for a wonderful day…everyday of the week, month, year.

At the close of each day…give thanks. Giving gratitude for another glorious day. If it was a challenging day, then what a great time to give thanks for the wonderful lesson provided to us. Whether perceived as good or bad…guaranteed there is always something to be grateful for…we just have to focus on it.

Stepping into the Canvas with Gratitude. Gratitude for the wonderful changing seasons, the glorious new beginnings and the wonderful opportunities for growth. Life is meant to be enjoyed, not the opposing. See everything as a gift and there will be a present awaiting you each and every day. This is my favorite day!

Out Of Our Comfort Zone And Into The Unknown

Stepping into the Canvas out of our comfort zone and into the unknown. In the unknown, new realities learned, new paradigms housed, new beginnings ready for the taking! Step out of the ordinary and into the extraordinary, from comfort zone to unknown. When we take the leap of faith, we dare to find out how far our dreams will take us…

Stepping As A Work In Progress

Have you ever wanted to do something in your life, but didn’t know where to begin? or possibly afraid of stepping out of the comfort zone? We all have this burning desire to do something that makes an impact in our lives. Some are fortunate to live the dream at any early age, but for many they will die without ever playing their music. Wayne Dyer often speaks, ”Don’t Die with your Music still in you.”

It is my turn.  Not knowing where I am going with this, I take the first steps.  Feeling naked and vulnerable, I move forward into the unknown. Most people do their due diligence and take years to research without ever lifting a finger towards their dream. Equipped with only the basics, I proceed forward…living the Dream.

Often times we set out on task not knowing the direction , but we have a result in mind…ever wonder in awe about how it got finished? When we establish the end result, the details automatically get filled in. The details are not necessarily filled in by our own works. See the end result but then trust that Universe will take care of the details…she always does.

I hope the writings on this blog inspire many, spark fire within others and help those lost… be found once more. The messages will be raw and unfiltered (for now) and will grow into something that which I have not figured out. Waves of Love and gratitude to those who support me on my journey of life……………. and so it continues…

With only an idea in my back pocket and an intent in my Heart, I set out on a journey of a lifetime. Dropping seeds of Hope, Love and Peace…I set a Fire ablaze within my soul. Everything leading to this very moment has been on purpose and everything leading to this point in time has been a reflection of my thoughts. Setting my dreams to reality…one step at a time.

Stepping into the Canvas of the unknown. Never really understanding the path leading into the unknown, lean on faith…knowing that All is Good. Returning to the beginning..All is Good…it shall be so. As it is written, so shall it be…a Work in Progress.

Stepping Into Virtue

Stepping into the Canvas with Virtue. Be that it may, be that it might…whatever it is…may it be virtuous. It is never about good or evil, right or wrong…for these are human perceptions. Stand in whatever ground you wish, with understanding that both have consequences. Whether you choose the black wolf or white to feed, do so with great moral judgment. Step with Love and Compassion and it shall be so…