A Work In Progress

contemplation

I would be a liar to say I don’t get upset when days are altered. With daily routines, rituals, and patterns that bring peace to my being, it doesn’t take much for the human side to be thrown off course.

Recently at the local gym the steam room goes out, causing great distress on its members. Trying to overcome the fear of not being able to meditate, clear my head, or just be…emitting toxins from my body, I recognize my angst of not being able to use the steam. In my angst I look to another gym, hoping they’ll allow me to use their facility for a week. To my surprise their steam room is out as well. The irony here is not so much that the steam rooms are both out, but that I have found anxiety in something so small.

With our busy schedules it is very easy to get knocked off course…off our course of peace, love and compassion. When our day is complete…work is done. We must tap into our reserves…especially when there may be young ones waiting for us at home. They do not care about the mundane schedule, the busy day, or the many difficulties endured…all that matters to them is you are home. Your undivided attention…that is all they seek. Dig deep, give them everything you have. Change your schedule; check the emotions at the door. They grow up so quickly! Ask any parent as they will say, ”spend every moment with them…they grow up too fast!”

So instead of the steam room, I retreat to nature once again.  There are many alternatives to finding peace and quietude. Nature can play a key role in finding peace…20 minutes per day is equal to a whole week retreat.

During my self-discovery, I uncover more growth opportunity.  I discover that even though I am calm and at peace, there are moments that still bring angst into my day. I am okay with this as I grow forward. My wish for you today is…whatever troubles you, whatever brings angst in your day, may you sit with it, embrace it, and allow it to grow into something brighter.

The irony to my lesson was that as soon as I released the angst of what I thought should be my plan, the steam room miraculously was fixed.

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The Irony of Man is not a new problem, but a repeating cyclical behavior passed down from generation to generation. Aristophanes referred to this as eiron, Greek word for Irony, and applied its usage to any shady or annoying characters. The Irony in itself was that Aristophanes himself was a ’jokester’ and often annoyed others within his time. Classic case of projecting shadows onto another.

Carl Jung proved the shadow effect to be that of projection of oneself onto another: In some cases we see positive in another, wishing we could be more like them; In others we see negative aspects of ourselves we do not care for, commenting on them as ”Ironic” or as Aristophanes called annoying.

The first example is self-explanatory as we want to be more like that which we desire to become, thereby causing a natural gravitational pull towards positive people in our lives. The second is not so clear.

Our thoughts and attitudes need persistent training in a world so intent on convincing us that we are who we are not and that we are not who, in fact, we are. ~Debbie Ford

While projecting Shadows, we not only display judgment through bitterness but also express malicious verbal accusations of another. Failing to realize we are merely looking into the mirror with our own reflection projecting onto others, we find disgust with not just them but subconsciously ourselves. Those who remain in their own shadows either stay in darkness or turn towards the light.

We can chase our shadows of doubt or we can turn our attention towards the source of Light, leaving our shadows behind us forever. ~Joseph

Our shadows have ability to shine brightly, as the source of Light, through which awareness and mindfulness is achieved. Remain in the shadows and that is where we remain. Turning attention towards source energy, we receive lessons of acceptance for all (you, me, he, she, we, they): Acceptance for all ironies of life, finding humor in the ironic behavior of man.

Isn’t it ironic that we pay for gym memberships when we could easily walk outside, getting more fresh air, vitamin D and an over-whelming feeling of well-being? We pay for ’Coaches’ to tell us how to live, when we need only sit and ponder our lives. We want to get healthier but are unwilling to make changes in diets or lifestyles, instead paying someone to keep us on track. We have known health issues, but fail to change our ways…further paying someone to aid us with our health…usually in the form of a convenient pill. Our lives are filled with ironies.

Is it a case of laziness or subscribing in a belief of doing something every moment, forgetting to reconnect with the Canvas of Life.  The Canvas of Life has no rules, but has consequences.  We can choose to take our time while painting our canvas or we can rush through it, splattering paint everywhere with little care in how it falls. One can yield a peaceful, tranquil moment while embracing the Canvas and the other yields chaos, angst often misery.  Misery brought on by deadlines and timelines…always living for the clock… missing the beauty provided by the Canvas.

While our moments may not always be what we expect them to be, it can be enjoyable no matter what. The Irony of Man does not have to complete the cycle anymore. We can actually break the cycle of Irony and begin a new cycle: a cycle that includes awareness, forgiveness, gratitude and Love. Wait no longer…change our worldly view. Turn from the shadows of darkness and turn towards the light.

If all we have in our hearts is Love, there can be room for nothing else. ~Joseph

While the Pilgrim subscribes to the Irony of Man allowing the cycle to continue in his lineage, the Warrior (Ani Po) subscribes to a new irony…one of serendipity. On a personal level it can change with a single thought. On a global level, same thought. We find in ourselves, and in others, that not one human being is perfect. In this recognition we find perfection in all the imperfections.

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Have you ever wanted to do something in your life, but didn’t know where to begin? or possibly afraid of stepping out of the comfort zone? We all have this burning desire to do something that makes an impact in our lives. Some are fortunate to live the dream at any early age, but for many they will die without ever playing their music. Wayne Dyer often speaks, ”Don’t Die with your Music still in you.”

It is my turn.  Not knowing where I am going with this, I take the first steps.  Feeling naked and vulnerable I move forward into the unknown. Most people do their due diligence and take years to research without ever lifting a finger towards their dream. Equipped with only the basics, proceeding forward…living the Dream.

Often times we set out on task not knowing the direction, but we have a result in mind…ever wonder in awe about how it got finished? When we establish end results, details automatically get filled in. The details are not necessarily filled in by our own works. See the end…but then trust that Universe will take care of the details…she always does.

I hope the writings on this blog inspire many, spark fire within others and help those lost be found once more. The messages will be raw and unfiltered (for now) and will grow into something that which I have not figured out. Waves of Gratitude and Love are sent to those who support me on my journey of life and so it begins.

With only an idea in my back pocket and intent in my Heart, I set out on a journey of a lifetime…dropping seeds of Hope, Love and Peace…for I am a work in progress.

Stepping into the canvas with new light of serendipity.  As our habits become old, we acquire habits of new. Whatever troubles you through the day, bring thanks to your being…let it go, trusting ‘all is good.’ Stepping with our own angst, we begin walking in a new light. Have a glorious day and may your day be filled with new habits of Love and Light. With every step, every thought…may it be aligned with the seven generations. With our ability to alter the cycles, we align our thoughts with that of source energy. Focusing on our shadow, we remain in darkness: focusing on Light, we Shine On into another day. Shine On…we are a work in progress.

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The Warrior’s Way

In every one of us there are two sides: the Pilgrim, often lost but continuously searching for peace; the Warrior, who is found working as usual while instilling Peace.
Many remain pilgrims searching for eternal peace and a small few become Warriors. While it is available to all few will accept this new reality, failing to find truth in their daily lives. Those who find truth create a new path in life…the path of a Warrior; those seeing false reality as truth, remain as pilgrim…lost and afraid.

Accepting the Warrior’s way, living in the authentic self, opinions of others no longer matter. The only opinion needed is our own. Carl Jung believed in two stages of life: the morning, which is the first thirty to forty years and the afternoon, which is the second half. The morning of our lives is usually lived blindly, accumulating as much stuff we can. While the afternoon is reserved for letting go of the past and adopting a new belief system that focuses only on the self.  No longer subscribing to what others tell us, we begin living the way we want to.

As soon as we rid the 10,000 thoughts running through our heads, focusing only on what we want in life, our neurotransmitters within the brain reconnect to new pathways. Thoughts of happiness, thoughts of success, thoughts of “I can do this,” thoughts of “I am whole.” Personally, as the 10,00 things dissipated, my writings began to flow more freely, allowing me to clear even more items of thought. Not sure how it evolved, but my writings often spoke of two sides to every situation and the Pilgrim versus Warrior analogy began. Often resulting in the Pilgrim versus Warrior comparison. What keeps you from applying what you know? Is it the self-defeating thoughts? Do you align with the Pilgrim or are you well on the way to being a Warrior?

What would the pilgrim do in any given situation? Since the pilgrim is lost and afraid, living in fear, anger, hate and anxiety, he often finds himself in difficult situations. What would the Warrior do in a given situation? The Warrior walks in confidence, knowing that Love, Light and Life will illuminate a path before her. While the pilgrim trusts external compasses, the Warrior trusts the internal.

After pen to paper, thoughts to reality, a Warrior was born.  Devoted to helping other pilgrims find the path of Warrior, she works night and day in hopes of others taking their first Step into the Canvas. Maybe it is time for you to declare “enough” and begin living as authentic as possible, dissolving all past beliefs, cancelling all subscriptions of present and finally setting your gaze upon a happy future.

Stepping into the Canvas as a Warrior, no longer worried what will be or what others will think. Living authentically, lending a hand wherever needed, the Warrior goes wherever needed and arrives right on time. Stepping in timely fashion, the Canvas of Life transforms into Paradise. Waiting not for Paradise of the after…but embracing it in the present. Today is the day…

Getting Stoned

Living in an imperfect world, we are witness to many imperfections within ourselves and others. The sad truth is we fail to identify our imperfections and quickly point out imperfections of others. Or we identify our own imperfections by projecting them onto others, continuing to judge others for something that we ourselves have done.

We now return to Ani Po to get a Warrior’s perspective…

Ani Po was at her local gym, when a gentleman approached her and asked her opinion on Capitol punishment.She, having no opinion on this matter, answered “I do not believe in these laws that have been established by your people.”

Gent: “What do you mean, my people? Are they not your people too?”

Ani Po: “No. Where I come from we do not hate any one person or judge them for human experiences, instead we leave this up to our Father.”

Gent: “Where do you come from Mars? How can you not want to punish a murderer or a rapist? And why is your father involved?”

Ani Po: “My Father, is the Father of all fathers. He is the only person worthy of judgment. Our job is to learn lessons of Love. It is not their fault they murdered someone, it is your fault.”

Gent: “How are the actions of another my fault?”

Ani Po: “You follow the rules of the majority right? Then you and the majority are guilty of this. It is your fault for not helping a Brother in need, instead letting him wonder aimlessly through the countryside. Your prisons hold many lost souls, but they only want what you want…happiness. Locking them up, we only deprive them of the opportunity.”

It takes a whole village to raise a child.

~African Proverb

Ani Po: “In older times we understood what it took to raise a child, but somewhere through the ages we lost our way.Back then, the village was responsible for the raising of a child, nurturing and Loving the child as their own. Now-a-days we are ‘too busy’ for our own offspring. Their lack of Love in their lives, only develops attention seeking pilgrims who eventually challenge laws established by local government.”

Gent: “So are you saying that a whole community should take time out of their busy days to raise a lost child?”

Ani Po: “What I suggest is the community accept only Love in themselves, which invariably projects out into the community. We naturally desire Peace within, but fail to find it in our own community…thereby remaining lost. Accepting Love as the answer for all things, we instinctively return inward to find what had been there all along.”

Gent: “Ok, you still haven’t answered my question.”

Ani Po: “One day they will have to answer to God, they do not have to answer to me. As for myself, I am to learn forgiveness while I am on this planet.”

Gent: “How can you forgive a murderer? They deserve to be punished!”

Ani Po: “Maybe so, but I will leave that up to my Father. Under Babylonian and Hebrew Law, it was legal for one person to take equal or lesser action against any person who brought harm to them, still permitting a community to stone an person to death…justified under Hebrew Law. Nowadays we just lock them up…it is just the same as stoning them, as they die a slow painful death.”

An eye for an eye, leaves two people blind.

~Mahatma Gandhi

Gent: “Then what do you suggest?”

Ani Po: “I suggest everyone take time for self-reflection. In the words of Christ, Let he who is without sin, cast the first stone.We are all sinners. Here is another suggestion from Muhammad, Our Lord! we have indeed believed: forgive us then our sins and save us from the agony of the fire.

Gent: “So are you saying we should stone those guilty of sin?”

Ani Po: “Again I say to you…no. What i suggest is we All Get Stoned.”

At this time during the conversation, a fellow Warrior approaches Ani Po, “Yeah Man! I am in for getting stoned.”

They all part with laughter infused into their day, but the lesson remains to ponder. What do we do to the sinners of the world? Ani Po suggests we look only within ourselves and follow guidance of spirit. Spirit will lead us Home every time. When an individual asks for forgiveness, they must be willing to give up their old ways. If not, they remain in sin and shall be judged when the time comes. Wipe the slate clean, returning to Love and their shall be room for nothing else.

While the Pilgrim follows rules of the flesh, he invariably shall be judged himself by his own flesh. Returning to Spirit the Warrior relies on guidance from Holy Spirit, allowing freedom to be restored and Paradise to be revealed, her judgment shall be her reward.

Stepping into the Canvas putting down stones of judgment, we enter a new era…an era of Love and forgiveness. If we all put down the weapons of judgment, allowing peace to be restored throughout the land, we shall no longer fight. From this day forward we shall see our Brothers and Sisters in Light.

 

 

 

Dog vs Karma: Which has the Bigger Bite?

Ever wonder why good things happen to some people, and bad things always happen to others? Some say it is Karmic Law or Law of Attraction that rule our days. Whatever we put out into the universe, we will receive. Thereby deducing to whatever thoughts or actions we send, we will receive on a similar frequency.

Up until the Warrior was 35 years, she rode a roller-coaster ride with continuous ups and downs. She used to think that when something good happened, something bad was right around the corner. While it was true about the ups and downs, this isn’t how it works. What she failed to see was: when feeling good, we attract more good; feeling bad, we attract more bad. Karmic Law or Law of Attraction, whatever the law…it has truth.

As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.

~Proverbs 23:7

At the 35 years old, the time of her shift towards positivity, she realized her thoughts  affected her daily outcomes. Whether good thoughts or bad thoughts, they attracted the same force into her life. We use the analogy of good and bad here, for the basic principal of understanding. Human consciousness sees two sides to every story: one has a ‘good’ outcome and the other had ‘bad’ outcome. We are the only sentient being that see dualities.

Understanding these principles better, the warrior begins making alternative plans throughout her days. Filling them with gladness, she in return gets more to be glad about. Pilgrims often stop her to correct her, “you can’t possibly see everything as good…it just doesn’t work like that.” Being young, the warrior might have shut down for 2-3 days with such a negative statement. Being stronger she smiles at the pilgrim, “thank you for your opinion, but in my world nothing ever goes wrong.” This might seem delusional, but in reality we are all delusional…why not be delusional and feel good, attracting everything we most desire?

Even though our Warrior has just begun to experience all that the Universe has to offer, even in her ups and downs of the roller-coaster, she has always remained virtuous. Her actions while not always perfect in her youth,  always treated people with the ‘golden rule’ in mind: “We are to treat people as we want to be treated.” Knowing what she knows now, she has adopted the ‘Platinum Rule.’ One step further than the golden, “we are to treat people as THEY want to be treated.” Because of our many diversities, we may not want the same things, thereby offering what the other person wants.

Have you ever heard the expression, “be careful not to burn a bridge? ”

Years ago, when the Warrior was yet a pilgrim herself, she was still in training as a healer and surrounded by vicious attack dogs. Her daily life was walking on pins and needles as she received her training from a leader who obviously was not happy in life. The Warrior was verbally abused, made to feel inferior. It was as if she was bitten by a large  hungry wolf. Not being able to ever sit and relax, her left cheek throbbed from continues biting. Turning the other cheek, she forgave the hungry wolves who abused her.

Twenty years later when she has nearly mastered her healing practice, the Warrior receives a knock at her door. It was one of the hungry wolves from her past. Feeling instant pain in her left side, her somatic response reminds her of the pain she endured just by the mere sight of this hungry wolf. Something is different this time.

The hungry wolf is weak and hungry. Not for blood, but for life. Worn and tattered, she asks for a hand out. The Warrior turned her cheek once more,  remembering to offer the Heart of Compassion at all times. She agrees to letting the hungry wolf into her house and offers her sustenance. The wolf explains that she has no work and cannot support her family in these trying times. She then asks for a job.

The Warrior smiles, offering her more compassion. She explains, “when I was young, you were the meanest person to me. You made me feel inferior, inadequate as a human being, and hated going to school everyday. Now you sit here asking for a handout. I am a forgiving person and I hope you have changed your ways, knowing that you cannot treat people with such indignity. I will see what I can do.” The Warrior and the wolf embrace, comforting the wolf…then they part and go their separate ways.

While the Warrior unfortunately did not have an available position, she was sincere and took the opportunity to express her Heart of Compassion. The irony here is that when she was young she got bit on the butt by a hungry wolf. Now the hungry wolf is getting bit on the butt by Karmic Law. When we live in the flesh, just as the Warrior experienced, the pain lasts only for a moment as it is only flesh healing with time. The bitten becomes strong, but the biter opens herself up to more pain later on. So which bite hurt more? The bite of the hungry wolf or the bite of Karmic Law. Who felt it more? The Warrior or the Hungry wolf?

Stepping into the Canvas with a softer step. Meeting mother earth with every step, giving her a gentle kiss. We walk softly among the pilgrims and other Warriors with better understanding of who we are and how we got here. In all our adversities and all our glorious moments, we have risen to this very day. This is our day to shine and not one person can take that away from us.

 

The Guardians of Light

Do you struggle with purpose? Are you searching for answers to the hidden questions deep within soul? What is our purpose and how do we find the answers? It is said we only need look within to find the answers without. What this means is we are to go on an inner journey of the self to find answers facing us in our own reality.

We return now to the Spiritual Warrior once again, as she finds her purpose…

 

Note: I am returning to the original format of our Warrior in the divine feminine. The Pilgrim represents the ego and the Warrior represents the Spirit within all. Being human, I disclose my fault in listening to another chastise my usage of duality. While I do refer to dualistic behavior, the Pilgrim and Warrior are one in the same just different ways of seeing things. While one sees things in an Ego base world, the other sees it with eyes of Spirit.

 

The Pilgrim, turned Warrior, still looks for answers to her daytime dilemmas but has no luck finding them. With dreams of darkness, she knows that she must sit and contemplate her every move in hopes of uncovering yet another shadow of the past. She notes the importance of her dreams, as her dream world identifies opportunities of growth in her daily world.

Recently Her dreams are that of a Panther wandering the land, only to transform into the Eagle. Arising, she did not know what this meant until she entered her ‘quiet room’ and meditated on the lesson. Pondering her lesson, she discovered that She was once a  part of a secret society called the “Sisters of the Light.” These Sisters were keepers or protectors of the Divine Light and worked directly for the Creator.

While the Sisters of the Light kept balance in the Universe, they were at constant battle with darkened forces. Carrying the Divine Torch wherever they went, they illuminated the darkened region once more. What our Warrior could not understand is what this had to do with her dream of being a Panther. She must consult another Warrior for answers.

While remaining in a meditated state, she consults a Warrior from another dimension. Asking her Warrior Guide for clarity of this dream, her guide speaks, “the Panther is often symbolic of protector and is often paralleled with Guardian of Light. Therefore tying her dreams of being a Panther with that of the Sisters of Light.

“But what about the Eagle?” She asks.

“The Eagle is often symbolic of the Great Spirit. In modern-day it would be classified as the Great I AM or Creator. Your dream of the Great Spirit is symbolic of your divinity in protecting the Divine Light. Being the Panther or Guardian of Light, you are working directly for the Great Spirit and maintaining balance in the Universe.”

Realizing Her purpose the Warrior knows to remain true to herself, listening to the inner voice and following as needed. This inner voice comes directly from the Great I AM and will always lead Her to the next destination.

Returning to reality, she ponders this heavy burden. Now smiling, she knows what she is to do. With torch in hand, she begins lighting other torches along The Way…

Stepping into the Canvas Lighting the Way for others. As our internal flame burns hot like fire, may it turn into a calming sea for others. Our passions will be shared by others in hopes of inspiring those in need. With every step, remaining in the moment, we seize every opportunity to lend a hand… and maybe even Light another Torch.

The Warrior and the Chopsticks

Often times we have varying ideas of reality. With differences in religious beliefs, political views, and plain day-to-day events, we all have different realities. Within this lifetime we have som any varying views, who’s to say it stops at the end of this world. Here is a story and reflection of  Warrior who witnesses first hand that our varying perceptions do not stop at death’s door.

There is a legend about a warrior in the East who died and went to heaven. “Before I enter,” he said to the gatekeeper, “I would like you to take me on a tour of hell.”

The gatekeeper found a guide to take the warrior to hell. When they got there, the warrior was astonished to see a great table piled high with every tasty food he could imagine – anything one could possibly want to eat or drink. The warrior then looked at the people. They were all starving.

“How could this be?” he asked the guide. “Are they not allowed to eat?”

“Oh yes, they can eat,” said the guide “but they must use the chopsticks they are given. They are five feet long and they must hold them at the end. Just look at them. They miss their mouths every time!”

“Enough,” said the warrior, “This is hell, indeed! Please take me back to heaven.” In heaven, to his surprise, he saw a similar room, with a similar table loaded with all the same food. But, the people were in radiant health, happy and well-nourished. The warrior turned to the guide and said, “I see – no chopsticks here.”

The guide replied that yes, the people were still issued chopsticks and yes, they were still five feet long and that they still must be held at the end – but, the difference was that in heaven the people learned to feed each other.

Just as the Warrior found in the afterlife, we are witnesses too. Often we see the negative side of thins when there is always a silver-lining to every darkened cloud. We can choose to see ourselves as helpless or we can choose to be self-sufficient, allowing a higher source to work within our lives.

Stepping into the Canvas with the view of a Warrior. Instead of seeming helpless and not being able to eat, we work collaboratively as one…never going hungry again. Lending a hand to another, I invariably help myself to eat.

 

A Tale of Two Men

This is a short story about two men with varying viewpoints on life. While neither is wrong, only one of them finds happiness…

 

One day a man decided it was time to venture out into the world and see what else the universe had to offer. Not feeling content with his current residency, he hoped to find better accommodations.

Approaching a nearby village, he meets an elder of the village.

“Excuse me sir!”

“Yes.” The elder replies.

“My name is Julio and interested in potentially relocating to your town. Can you tell me a bit about your town?”

The elder asks,”what are you looking for?”

The man replies, “well, I am looking for a place that will bring me happiness and gives me a sense of purpose.”

Elder replies, “why don’t you tell me a bit about where you are from.”

Interrupting the elder, “what kind of people live here. I mean, are they happy?”

Elder replies, “what kind of people live in your village?”

“oh, they are the meanest, nastiest people who I have known and that is why I am looking to move somewhere more pleasant.”

The elder sadly, “I am sorry to report, but the people who live here sound just like wherever you came.”

To his dismay, the man left and never returned.

 

Oddly enough, another gentleman arrives at the village and greets the same elder.

“Good day to you sir.”

The elder replies, “It is a fine day in deed.”

“could you tell me what kind of people live in this town? I am considering relocating from my current place of residency.”

The elder smiles, as if it was very familiar in conversation, “why don’t you tell me about the people the live in your current village.”

“oh, well they are nicest people I have ever known. It will be sad to move, but I am looking for a change of scenery and looking to live somewhere similar to my home.”

The elder smiles brighter, “you are in luck, as it sounds like the same types of people we have here.”

The man wasted no time, packed up his things and moved to the nearby village.

 

While one man remained lost as a pilgrim, searching for something outside of his boundaries in hopes of finding happiness, the other was as sure as the Warrior…accepting happiness wherever he goes. One mans viewpoint was of misery, while the other found a silver-lining in every cloud. One man continues searching for peace and happiness, while the other merely chooses it.

Stepping into the Canvas with a new attitude…One of happiness, seeing all as good. Even in times of suffering it is possible to find good…we just have to look a little harder. Do you see people as irritating or judgmental? Or do you see them Friendly, caring human beings? Whichever you choose, it is merely reflecting the mirror you carry…

 

Original story told by Wayne Dyer, shortened for this blog.