When Shadowy Self Becomes our Greatest Ally


When Shadowy Self Becomes our Greatest Ally

Digging deeply into our soul, finding a resurrection of Self

Photo by Kevin Mueller on Unsplash

Life can be airy-fairy, or as real as we make it out to be. What does that mean? Sitting, staring at the puzzle pieces of life before me, gathering everything that has ever happened.

I have been looking at phases — or chapters of life, seeing many places I have been, phases I have gone through, and understandings of such — still unclear as to what it all means, I continue placing the puzzle pieces together.

Someone once said to me, “you are all over the map!” I hear this voice and relate to how humans go through an ungrounded phase of life (or so it seems) until seeking grounding ourselves within Great Mystery.

There are phases of pain and misery, laughter and raw excitement, moments of “everything is great.” The euphoria stage depicts phases of one’s life where we want happiness so badly we mask pain and disguise it with everything wonderful. Go too far down this rabbit hole, and we get stuck in an illusory life of airy-fairy, unicorns, and mystical creatures.

Spiritual Bypassing

I am not saying unicorns and mystical experiences cannot happen, but stating that we can get caught up in moments of euphoria — masking hidden realities within the self. We all experience pain, we all experience joy — but ultimately, happiness comes from seeing things for what they are in life.

Truly I say to you — many are broken while experiencing glimpses of joy and gladness. Discounting our sadness and pain, falling victim to self-sabotage. Either create a reality where everything sucks, or cover it up with dreams of what may be.

To truly find wholeness, there is an acknowledgment of self, broken and whole — only by acknowledging the dark side of life and brighter side of things. Not ignoring the dark side of things but acknowledging and remaining in a state of happiness for who we are.

How people treat you is their karma; how we react is our own. ~Wayne Dyer

Similarly — how we create our life is symbolic of our truth — hidden in the shadows — or walking hand in hand with our pain.

Life truly is the Great Mystery, never fully understanding — we are to learn from it — grow during — living as if it were our last.

~Ani Po


The above piece was written a couple of years ago. Looking back, witnessing personal ‘seeking’ coming to a tails-end. Not meaning I am ever complete with my journey, merely closer to no longer seeking that which has always been seeking me — happiness.

With shadow-self, still lurking about, waiting foredone taken center stage of our healing. Smiling heretofore, embracing shadowy-self and all his disfigured masks, moving forward on a tightrope, thin-line between worlds.

Releasing an employee to another organization, I thank him for being the Ass that he was, allowing me to rise to an even higher plane of understanding.


Much gratitude for those who take time to read, ponder and allow the inner workings of self to come forward. Grateful for the feedback, love shared, and more importantly the Dance with Inspiration. Deep Peace.

Joseph Lieungh

Photo by Javardh on Unsplash

Attaching Wings to the Fallen Bird


Attaching wings to the fallen bird

Depravity of one’s true nature

Photo by Igor Rodrigues on Unsplash

Divided fowl’s appendage further segregated sun
hearts splitting in two — body and carnage remain

Source essence forgotten — reaching distance bemoaned
wings of hope fly directional opposition

Wrapping promise across planetary circles
body of greed remains seeking more power that is

Across the Behring Straight or by Eastern Sea
landing with hopes of bodies uniting

Further division of left and right feathery breeze
rotting corpses and altruistic bodies sharing flight once prophesied

Benevolent are they — carrying carnage of ancient tongue
lost, broken, weak are they — not yet awoken

Rise, my feathery friends — united are we
flying together uniting one body — one family.

Empty are the bellies birthing peace and tranquility
evil seeking asylum in Mother’s bosom.

One heart ripped in two
two hearts beating as one

Once torn from the tribal council
uniting in the streets — sparing voice

Fighting over first nations unimportant
concerted front-end loaders are pouring love across the fields


Photo by Lyssa Sutter on Unsplash

Conflict amongst ourselves, varying stories of right and wrong, beginning and end, creation or evolution. What if we are all correct in saying these things? What if our realities are all true? Pain and destruction, Love and peaceful valleys — all true!

There was a time we were one, further dividing through the passing of times, consuming flesh and body — devouring our tails without ever knowing the infinite cyclical behavior self-inflicted upon ourselves.

Yonder, passing vibrational tune onto the next generational song, screeching and sounding absurdly childish — scolded for biting brother’s hand that once fed us.

Enough!

Return home, whence you came, before beginning was The Beginning. From beginning to end, we are that ouroboros absorbing self-realizing truths of yesteryear, emesis, and regurgitating source not labeled by man.

Unable to swallow once begotten, uncomprehending decapitating foretelling of heart’s all-knowing, submitting to an omnipotent source far beyond space itself, we are becoming. Hand’s once cut — my father’s son, now holding warmly to brothers and sisters sun.

~Ani Po


Photo by on Unsplash

From the original Friday the 13th, where the Knight’s Templar were ordered executed, by King Philip, in October of 1307, to The Bloody Sunday led by Lenin, to modern day fighting amongst ourselves — brothers and sisters are we. Turned against one another, fighting over our story-lines as to who’s carries more validity.

I pondered all of the wars between man, then the first nations arrival to the Americas. Uncertain to the origin with varied stories, I envisioned the First peoples arriving from the east and west, as to embrace the whole planet in unity. From the right and left with great wings of hope as one body — they are still here, holding the sacred flame.

My heart aches for humanity

Continuing to pluck the wings from source and body of what was, how can we expect to fly in harmony? Unity of self and collective whole — we shall return.

Not knowing where this was taking me, allowing it free reign over the keyboard. Thank you Ravyne Hawke for allowing me to share these words, thank you for holding this space.

Previous story which led into this piece…

Much gratitude for those who take time to read, ponder and allow the inner workings of self to come forward. Grateful for the feedback, love shared, and more importantly the Dance with Inspiration. Deep Peace.

Joseph Lieungh

Photo by Javardh on Unsplash