When Shadowy Self Becomes our Greatest Ally
Digging deeply into our soul, finding a resurrection of Self
Life can be airy-fairy, or as real as we make it out to be. What does that mean? Sitting, staring at the puzzle pieces of life before me, gathering everything that has ever happened.
I have been looking at phases — or chapters of life, seeing many places I have been, phases I have gone through, and understandings of such — still unclear as to what it all means, I continue placing the puzzle pieces together.
Someone once said to me, “you are all over the map!” I hear this voice and relate to how humans go through an ungrounded phase of life (or so it seems) until seeking grounding ourselves within Great Mystery.
There are phases of pain and misery, laughter and raw excitement, moments of “everything is great.” The euphoria stage depicts phases of one’s life where we want happiness so badly we mask pain and disguise it with everything wonderful. Go too far down this rabbit hole, and we get stuck in an illusory life of airy-fairy, unicorns, and mystical creatures.
Spiritual Bypassing
I am not saying unicorns and mystical experiences cannot happen, but stating that we can get caught up in moments of euphoria — masking hidden realities within the self. We all experience pain, we all experience joy — but ultimately, happiness comes from seeing things for what they are in life.
Truly I say to you — many are broken while experiencing glimpses of joy and gladness. Discounting our sadness and pain, falling victim to self-sabotage. Either create a reality where everything sucks, or cover it up with dreams of what may be.
To truly find wholeness, there is an acknowledgment of self, broken and whole — only by acknowledging the dark side of life and brighter side of things. Not ignoring the dark side of things but acknowledging and remaining in a state of happiness for who we are.
How people treat you is their karma; how we react is our own. ~Wayne Dyer
Similarly — how we create our life is symbolic of our truth — hidden in the shadows — or walking hand in hand with our pain.
Life truly is the Great Mystery, never fully understanding — we are to learn from it — grow during — living as if it were our last.
~Ani Po
The above piece was written a couple of years ago. Looking back, witnessing personal ‘seeking’ coming to a tails-end. Not meaning I am ever complete with my journey, merely closer to no longer seeking that which has always been seeking me — happiness.
With shadow-self, still lurking about, waiting foredone taken center stage of our healing. Smiling heretofore, embracing shadowy-self and all his disfigured masks, moving forward on a tightrope, thin-line between worlds.
Releasing an employee to another organization, I thank him for being the Ass that he was, allowing me to rise to an even higher plane of understanding.
